i know

i often think about..
if i could change it to how it was before.
however,
with time and growth, life, finally,
restored.

i’m different now, and i suppose,
it’s better than feeling nothing at all.
i wonder how, if the chance arose,
if i’d take that step,
cross the bridge
leap the gap,
i failed before.

pinch in my chest, taught by jealousy, best.
continue my quest,
once more.
is this real? could it be?
inability to feel.. no more.

i sat on mountain tops,
without a hair of awe.
should’ve marveled, should’ve had to lift my jaw.
and now i look at you,
the universe out the door.
taken to a place,
beyond time and space,
i’ve sojourned once before.
didn’t think i’d revisit this soon,
although i’ve seen countless moons,
since then.
heart lifted,
spirit shifted,
jealous….. yes.
for what?
i do not know.
at least i know.

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